Trauma:

I want to talk to you about trauma. A trauma is when a part of your body is injured due to an accident, or on purpose. It is usually sudden, but trauma can also develop over a long period of time. A person who is in a car accident is traumatized as the brain tries to come to terms with what has happened. The death of someone is traumatizing, even more so if it is a family member, or close friend.

Trauma can come in many forms and many ways, but the end result is damage. When some part of our body has been injured, immediately we experience pain. Then swelling and inflammation. WE draw back form what has caused us injury and try to protect that part of us from further damage.

This is reflexive. WE do not even have to think about it, we just do it by instinct. But physical trauma is not even the worst. At least with physical trauma, we can and do heal. Unless we die first, our bodies can come back from very harsh damage given enough time and rest. But the trauma that I want to deal with now is spiritual trauma.

Christians today are walking around as wounded and think they are OK. People around them who do not have discernment think they are OK, because you cannot always see spiritual trauma. Sometimes people are good at hiding it. Often though, people with spiritual trauma that are unhealed walk around in a kind of fog. You notice that is some way they are out of balance. Maybe fear, or doubt rules in their heart. Sometimes financial ruin. If someone is wounded, they will often exhibit signs of that trauma in some way.

A woman is abused as a child. Then because of a weakness in her makeup, she marries a man just like her father, who continues the abuse. She has been born again and thinks that as if by magic that everything is OK. But she has developed a hatred and a mistrust of men in general. This is a destructive trait that is predicated upon abuse and suffering injury over a long period of time. It’s not her fault, but the results are no less destructive. She compensates for her weakness by being overly aggressive. But because she has never been truly healed of her injury, she has difficulty establishing any trusting relationships with men and all her relationships fail rather quickly.

The sex does not matter. Anyone can suffer any injury at any time and the results are always the same. The Devil walks around like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour and if you are a Christian, even better!!

The other problem is that we deceive ourselves and think we can go on without getting healing in that area of our life. We march ever blindly into the darkness believing that we are OK. Because we have built up a scab there, we resist anyone who wants to lift the bandage and view the injury. Remember what I said, instinctually, we protect our wounds. The trust issue makes it even more difficult. You have heard the adage, “We are our own worst enemy?” Well, that is certainly true.

God wants us to be healed and set free. But for that to happen, we must find someone who is adept at healing these kinds of wounds and who has Spiritual discernment as well as a compassionate spirit. One who is humble and meek. Who is not self-motivated, but also walks in the authority of almighty God. And someone like that is almost impossible to find.

I have been learning how to minister to the “Walking Wounded” for 36 years now. But my focus has been acute for the last 2 months. I was farced into this role by my love for my wife. We have both been Christians for 37 years. We raised 3 children, but our youngest died before his 13th birthday by the hands of a gang of boys. We had always prayed over our children, so sending them out without prayer would have been unheard of in our house.

Our youngest went to spend the night with his best friend. A group of 15- and 16-year old’s killed him that night. It threw me into a tailspin for almost 10 years. I just could not understand how God would let something like that happen to me. I did not blame him, but I just could not explain it. It caused all my religion and my pre-conceived ideas to go right out the window.

But it took 10 years before I could face life again. I started by going to a psychologist and got the whole thing off my chest. I then enrolled in college again and updated my education. I very slowly began to rebuild my faith upon the firm foundation of Christ and him alone. It was 2014 when I went back to school. Slowly, line upon line, precept upon precept as by the Spirit of the Lord.

Then after a few years, I started preaching and teaching again. I did everything right and my faith that came out of that tragic time is one that can shake and move mountains!!!

My wife on the other hand did not fair so well. WE had made a pact that we would not allow this loss to destroy our marriage. And that much we succeeded at. But I was in no position to help her in her tome of need and there was no one else to help.

Recently, I started noticing that when stressed she would retreat into this would of her making and would leave reality. (I asked her permission to tell this story) So, I asked her where she went t when she was stressed. I also began to probe deeper into her past before even the loss of our son. Back to when she was a child. I discovered that she was afraid of her father. He was an alcoholic during her formative years, and he had thrown her against the wall and then went after her brother, to beat him senseless.

He reaction to that trauma was that she built this place in her mind that she could escape to and feel safe. But 50 years later it had left a door open to attack her mental health. See, when we do things, sometimes because of trauma and sometimes because we were selfish or angry or some sin. We open doors for the enemy to come and attack us and cause us to suffer mercilessly. We don’t understand why we cannot seem to get control of an area of our lives, no matter what we do. These demon spirits can come through generational curses, or from hurts that we have received and then forgot about. These spirits do not care how they gained entrance to our lives; they will do what they are programmed to do no matter what. When we do not get healed right away or repent, they become familiar after a while and a soul tie is built.

These are extremely hard to get rid of because they came with legal authority to buffer a believer because of sin or trauma. Because they have become familiar and are tied to each other by familiarity, neither one wants to let go. That is what makes deliverance so difficult.

Casting out a demon from a non-believer is easy compared to Christians who are oppressed by demon spirits. A non-believer, or anyone who has given themselves over to Satan, become possessed. The spirit won’t want to come out, but they have no legal authority to be there, so they must obey. But to a Christian who is dealing with this they are not possessed, they are oppressed, meaning the demon is not inside of them, it only has influence over them. And because the battle is in the heavens, it is right upstairs in our own mind. That is where the battle takes place for who has control of our thinking. And the demon has the right to be there because we gave them the right by our actions.

So, I cannot cast such a one out of someone. They must cut them off themselves and cast them out of their own mind by ruling over their own thoughts. And that is the battle of a lifetime. My advantage with my wife is that I can see clearly what is taking place and help her to fight. But it is an uphill battle every single day.

My wife had built a life of retreating into her make-believe world and got so bad that she couldn’t even stay in the now. She stopped talking and living life. Now, the world will scream she is mentally ill. She has Schizophrenia. My daughter says Mom needs to be in a hospital under heavy medication. But I know exactly what is going on and I am learning how to fight effectively.

Instead of her coming back after the death of our son, she stayed in her world and never developed the skills she needed to stand. Now, she needs the word and is trying to play catch-up. She is obeying my voice and submitting herself to God. She is praying, fasting, and reading the word constantly.

All of this is allowed for one reason and one reason only. The death of our flesh. To make us come out of our shell and believe God for the first time maybe in your life. And that is exactly what this turmoil is doing. “Except a kernel of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it abides alone. But in death it bringeth forth much fruit, after its own kind.” “He who saves his life shall lose it, but he who loses his own life, shall find eternal life!!” God allows this to happen to make us alive. I keep telling my wife, no matter how bad it gets, this is NOT unto physical death. And here is the truth. At the appointed time, Christ shall appear and shall deliver us from ourselves. If we have faith and if we stand fast and do not run away. We have the victory in Yeshua’s name. The problem is will you stand, or will you run?? This is applicable right now to whatever situation you are going through. Are you in the fire? Rejoice, for your redemption draws nigh! When it is finally time for a breakthrough, the fire gets hotter than ever. The storm gets unbearable. Because that is the only thing that will move us out of our comfort zone. Causes us to reach out to God for deliverance once and for all.

It is like a mother giving birth. In her time of labor, there is no consoling her. She must bear down and deliver that child. It hurts really bad, and she yells and twists the husbands hand trying to make him cry as well. God is trying to birth something new in you. Now if we had not sinned this process would have been painless. But now it is NOT!!! It Is time for the Church to birth a man-child. That is why God has subjected his whole creation to birthing pains. Things that have always worked do not work now and never will again. We pine for the way things were, but it is time for the camp of Israel to move on unto perfection.

Yeshua has endured our games for 2,000 years. But now he is commanding men everywhere to repent and grow up and causing his church to birth new life. And this man-child will deliver the nations and bring about the completion of all things. Immediately after birth, he is caught up unto the throne and that is exactly where I have been for the last 3 months. I have ben with Hashem, and we have been talking face to face, yet I am not consumed. I have seen the Most High and sit under his care and counsel. He has been revealing all the mysteries of time to me. He has been telling me all his secrets. Who is like the Most High? Who can sit in his counsel?? Him who is pure of heart and courageous. Him will he entertain. In the beginning he declared “Let us make man in our image, let us create him in our likeness and the Holy Ghost carried out God’s word. That is the us that made creation together. We are not only in his image, but we are to be like him too. Then we are us, as well.